90 Days
It's definitely been a better day today than yesterday. It wasn't perfect by any means, mostly due to the nasty rain and wind and general ickiness. It was just blustery and bleary and miserable.
And cold. I was effing cold all effing day.
I'm exhausted right now, due to a) having just spent five and a half hours looking for coverage of a client's big event thingy, and then b) writing out the answers to silly questions for school that are due in, oh, 2 hours from now. I did the week's design exercises over the weekend and they were fun; but iIt's the silly discussion questions that I hate, so of course I put them off as long as possible. And today is the longest I've ever procrastinated with these questions and didn't remember that I'd not done them until I was on my way downtown this afternoon sans laptop.
So yeah, definitely not the perfect day and I'm tired and ready to head to bed. But, it was still a very good day, and I wanted to pause for just a moment to mark this occasion:
I've been sober for 90 days!! It's been a wacky three months, to be sure, but it has been a good three months.
I went to a meeting at noon, and then I headed downtown for my haircut and eyebrow waxing. And, because I got down to the salon about 45 minutes early, I took a quick walk (in the pounding rain. URGH.) to the bank and then up to a cute little Italian panini place called Via Delizia, and treated myself to a bite of lunch out. It's a lovely little new place on NW 11th and Marshall in Portland's Pearl District. I had a yummy panini and a cup of soy hot cocoa.
It was a nice little break from the usual craziness of life and I enjoyed the atmosphere and had a little bit of time to reflect and just be at peace. I need to do that more: just be.
I know it sounds kind of funny, but being - sitting with yourself, wherever you're at, and embracing who you are at that moment - is surprisingly difficult. Even for someone like me who enjoys time alone. I realized today that while I do spend a substantial amount of time alone, I am often doing rather than being. And "doing" is not a bad thing in general - particularly if one has a lot of things to do - but I think that being is just as important, if not more so, and I need to make more time to just be.
So for the next three months? I'm going to practice simply being.
Comments
Congrats on 3 months sobriety. :-)
Posted by: NML | February 1, 2006 06:38 AM
Congratulations on your milestone!
Posted by: felicity | February 1, 2006 09:42 AM
Good for you! A worthy goal indeed....
Posted by: Pink Hobbit | February 1, 2006 10:55 AM